Being patient is HARD!
Looking back, I've had a really good week. I got to spend all day on Monday with our friends and played Rockband until we got hungry. I went to lunch on Thursday with a friend that I haven't seen in many years. We talked non-stop for more than two hours until we decided that she probably needed to get back to work. It was wonderful to catch up and see this friend of mine walking with God and at peace with herself. I even spent quality time last night with my cousin's family and got to play with their sweet baby boy. So, why was this such a hard week?
As I think about it, there are many factors involved. There is the stress of the lack of financial security. I am still grieving and missing my nephew. My sister and brother-in-law are waiting for special news. We are waiting for DHS to complete their adoption of S and J. We were supposed to receive a phone call this week that would let us know what our immediate future holds. The combination of all of these things together is becoming almost more than I can stand.
We are still waiting. I am trying to be patient. I keep reminding myself that God has a plan for us. I keep reminding myself that God will not give more than I can bear. A few months ago, God gave me a verse, "Indeed he was ill, and almost died. But God had mercy on him, and not on him only but also on me, to spare me sorrow upon sorrow." Phil 2:27. Paul was talking about his friend, Epaphroditus, who had been very sick. This has become the verse I cling to. There have been many sorrows for us in the last three years and God gave me that verse as a promise. I am just having trouble waiting for everything to be ready in His time.
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