Patience...Not My Virtue

Being patient is HARD!

Looking back, I've had a really good week. I got to spend all day on Monday with our friends and played Rockband until we got hungry. I went to lunch on Thursday with a friend that I haven't seen in many years. We talked non-stop for more than two hours until we decided that she probably needed to get back to work. It was wonderful to catch up and see this friend of mine walking with God and at peace with herself. I even spent quality time last night with my cousin's family and got to play with their sweet baby boy. So, why was this such a hard week?

As I think about it, there are many factors involved. There is the stress of the lack of financial security. I am still grieving and missing my nephew. My sister and brother-in-law are waiting for special news. We are waiting for DHS to complete their adoption of S and J. We were supposed to receive a phone call this week that would let us know what our immediate future holds. The combination of all of these things together is becoming almost more than I can stand.

We are still waiting. I am trying to be patient. I keep reminding myself that God has a plan for us. I keep reminding myself that God will not give more than I can bear. A few months ago, God gave me a verse, "Indeed he was ill, and almost died. But God had mercy on him, and not on him only but also on me, to spare me sorrow upon sorrow." Phil 2:27. Paul was talking about his friend, Epaphroditus, who had been very sick. This has become the verse I cling to. There have been many sorrows for us in the last three years and God gave me that verse as a promise. I am just having trouble waiting for everything to be ready in His time.

In More Recent News...

I haven't had much to say lately. I have gotten pretty depressed over the "Brian needs a church" excitement. However, on Wednesday, we got a reprieve! Brian will be preaching for a search committee this Sunday. The church I grew up in has allowed Brian a place to preach several times and is doing so again in order to help us. So, keep praying, we might be able to see around the bend in the road and find that we have arrived at our destination.

Still no phone call. Thanks for your continued prayers.

Still Waiting

Why is it that when I have plenty to do, I can find distractions, but when I NEED a distraction, I can't find one? At least, not one that I like. The Bible tells me that things will move quickly from today, but I am ready to have confirmation on that. I am so ready to be on staff again.

Waiting

I am waiting. On Tuesday night, a search committee will be meeting to discuss who God is calling to be their pastor. Brian and I have both received promises from God about this church. It is hard to wait to see if we interpreted His promises correctly. We hope to get a phone call on Wednesday telling us that Brian is their choice. I don't wait well.

I have learned much in the last three years. Patience still comes hard. I am trying my best not to doubt and am successful sometimes. I so wish I could put it to the back of my mind and not think about it until Brian tells me he has gotten a phone call. I guess I will just have to be patient a few more days.